I especially like your last paragraph: “It’s so liberating to have left that church.” After you had sat under unbelief for a while, you started to say, “It’s not so bad.” But when you finally left, you started to say, “It’s so liberating.” Remember the difference. Never again allow yourself to remain in an unbelieving environment until you say, “It’s not so bad.” When you begin to say that, the devil has taken you out. He has neutered you. You are no longer a light of the gospel, and you are no longer a threat to the darkness in this world. They say, “No church is perfect,” as if you should settle, but you have experienced what happens to you when you do that. It did not turn out well. Remember how you suffered. It is far better to not attend any church at all than to attend a church of unbelief. You must cling to faith and forsake all else. Seeing you confess this sense of liberation is better news to me than if you have found a good church. But it would happen again if you force yourself to attend a cessationist church and keep telling yourself it does not matter.

If your spouse lags behind spiritually, you must still move forward. If you keep growing, you will be in a better position to help. Settle clearly in your mind the various topics. With something like healing, decide why it is wrong to say that it happens “if it is God’s will.” Your spouse never says, “I know that God promised salvation to anyone who has faith in Christ, but even when there is faith, it happens only if it is God’s will. So it is possible for someone to have more faith than Jesus himself and still be damned to hell.” Your spouse never says this. But the healing of the body stands on the same basis as the forgiveness of sin — the atonement (Matthew 8:17). Therefore, for someone to say that healing happens only “if it is God’s will” regardless of our faith is also a logical repudiation of salvation by faith. In principle, this person cannot be a Christian. The least we can say is that there is a gross inconsistency, and it comes from unbelief. It is the opposite of reverence for God’s will. God was the one who sovereignly sent Jesus to bare our sins and diseases.

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